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when i receive your text message yesterday, i felt really worried and uneasy. could sense how upset you are and your emotion. my heart felt really heavy though i din spoke much.
you told me how much you miss me and need me right now. yes i could feel it, really really feel it. i wish i can flew over to china and give you the warmest hug. remember remember, what i have always told you. :)
before sweetheart gave me a heart attack, simei gave me a heart attack too. we are both kinda shock, haha. companied her home before we went out for dinner again. ate dinner at pionner mall and girl's talk. i think we really got no more secret anymore, lol. one love and wy came and find us and chatted for awhile. mum called and we went off near eleven.
today is new year eve. how are you gonna spend the last day of the year? and what's is your new year resolution?
i could hear 2009 calling and screaming at me and telling me, its gonna be a damn good one, heh. :)
i hope in the year 2009, momma and everyone else will be bless with good health. people around me and friends to be happy.
because i love everyone that i know. <3
Date & Time : 12/29/2008 / 11:48 AM
HI, my most idiotic bro :)
heh heh. bro, scold me lah. i am gonna show the whole world! stop bullying me and scolding me asshole. HAHAHA.
Date & Time : 12/28/2008 / 9:21 PM
idk what's wrong with yesterday shopping. its the thing or its with us? oh well, i guess gonna shop again soon. :)
bump into xuelian at bugis. the conversation we had was like so funny. heh heh, only the three of us know it. right right, ahhhha.
somethings are hard to change. no matter how hard you have tried, it's still gonna be like this. is the fear and the obstacle. thus, forever staying at the same place. and not making any changes.
at times, i hope someone will pull me out of it. no matter what, just pull me out of this. things are easier to be said then done.
my heart is too weak for anything.
one more week before school start. next week is gonna be busy, i suppose. still hope to get enough rest and get all energy back. tell me, 2009 is gonna be a good one. :)
Date & Time : 12/26/2008 / 3:05 PM
i kept laughing while msn-ing with sweetheart. esp when she keep using caplocks. damn funny, which idk why too. HAHAHAHA.
when are you coming back from that cheena country. i cant wait for your attachment to end and come back. miss you soooooooo much you know. and i know you miss me too, HAHA.
i loveeeeeeee my best friend! <3
Date & Time : 12/25/2008 / 10:35 PM
i dont deny that your action does touch my heart. you said you are trying to steal my heart away. you said you are always just by my side waiting for me.
sometimes, the words that you say make a huge impact on me, which you might not notice. but, i just dk how to react or what to say.
i like the way things are now. i dont want to complicate it. maybe i just need some time.
2008 is like a roller coaster for me. i hope 2009 will be a great one. :)
i am still very thankful for those who have been with me throughout the times. thank you very much darlings. you guys are really great. <3
i kept eating recently, like a pig! and my face is sooooooo fat, SAD. i am craving for so many food. sushi tei. subway. mcdonald breakfast. kfc. minced pork noodle. pastamania. hk cafe. dim sum. high tea. buffets. many more. :(
i think i better get some sleep now. after losing all the sleep yesterday.
good night loves.
Date & Time : / 4:32 PM
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
was so happening yesterday night. till simei and me was almost gone. it was so messy and i couldn't much remember alot of things. club was so packed, full of humans.
i am glad friend came and drove me back home. :)
enjoy your day loves! <3
Date & Time : 12/23/2008 / 9:29 AM
before i realise anything, someone told me i haven been emo-ing recently. and yes, i have been smiling all the way since like after common test? which is like two weeks already. heheheheee.
people and things have been nice these days. and i seriously love it so much and hope it dont end just like this. yea yea, i am so greedy. :)
yz came down and had thai express with me that day for lunch during lunch break. and i dont have to eat alone, heheheheee. elsemore, i am craving for thai express. feel so happy and contented.
oh ya, i was so touched by jh too, HAHA. he texted me asking me if i need him to pack food and pass to me for lunch on sat during work. that's so nice of him cause none of my friends offer that kind of service before, lol. really appreciate it.
i think i am in love with simei la. have been seeing her like every week. last week, twice a week man. HAHAHAHA. you better love me more okay, lol.
work gonna end late today, argh. anyway, after today i am left with one last shift, yay. :)
its christmas eve tomorrow baby!
how are you gonna spend your christmas eve? <3
Date & Time : 12/22/2008 / 9:42 AM
I AM SOOOOOO BUSY. and i feel so tired now. haven been really sleeping much since last friday onwards. :(
i want christmas eve to come faster. hope its gonna be a good one. HAHA.
then maybe i can rot and sleep at home the whole day on christmas. hehehehee. to get back all my energy.
i gotta eat, bathe and prepare for work soon. SAD, boring paragon. yucks.
BYE DARLINGS. love you super many. <3
Date & Time : 12/20/2008 / 11:35 AM
i think simei and me are the best clubbing partners. we enjoyed ourselves yesterday though our mission failed, lol. HAHA.
people are complaining that i lock my blog. i shall make it public again to save all troubles. heh.
thanks wanxiang for the ride home yesterday. :)
and hola, thanks to midnight shopping i have to work till 12mn today. i hope its gonna be not so boring over at raffles city. first time working there though, i dont wanna eat lunch alone. :(
i seriously think i need more sleep. suddenly got the urge to settle down and stop all those clubbing craps. but yea, say only. =.=
i am hungry. gonna eat and rest before starting work at 4pm. holy shit.
bye loves! <3
Date & Time : 12/16/2008 / 11:52 AM
1. What is your full name? chang jue ying.
2. Do you like your name? oh well, i have to like it isnt it?
3. How long have you like the person you currently like? :)
4. Have you kissed anyone before? obviously there is, haha.
5. Did you cry today? yes, i just did. :(
6. what are you doing at 8am this morning? still in my dreamland and i had a dream which i cant remember.
7. What are you doing an hour ago? bloghopping, heh.
8. What are you currently doing? doing this quiz.
9. Who last texted you a message? gab.
10. Have you told anyone you love them today? yes, i told sweetheart so.
11. Are you missing anyone right now? erh, yes i did but i wish i am not.
12. Any plans for tomorrow? doing scs and wisp project and maybe some shopping?
13. What was the reason behind the last time you cried? i shall keep this a secret.
14. Anyone you want to be with right now? i wanna be with so many people right now but i dont wanna name who they are. :)
15. Have you kissed anybody whose name start with S? HAHA, yes.
16. Name somebody who make you smile today, who and how? sweetheart, because i know you care. yz, i know you care too. nick, thanks for ur nonsense ah, like forever, lol.
17. Name somebody whose name start with Z. zhou xiong. haven seen him around since he quit poly though.
18. Which close friend of yours stay nearby to you? simei. she just two streets away.
19. Do you prefer to call or text? text.
20. Do you prefer today or yesterday? neither days.
21. Can you live a day without television and handphone? nope, i think i can die man.
22. Are you mad about anything right now? not much feeling.
23. Do you ever think that relationship are worth it? yes, i will give it my best in everyone.
24. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital? mum? but that was few months ago.
25. Who was your second last and last hug from? i am not gonna tell you :)
26. What does your last message in your hp say? says he is free tonight and wanna chat on phone.
28. Do you hate anybody? why choose to hate when we can love?
29. Who was the last person you called? paragon lancome.
30. Who usually send you the most text in a month? it depend.
Date & Time : 12/15/2008 / 2:11 PM
how happy is happy? does it mean when you smile or claim that you are happy, so you really are? how do you judge?
no one fucking know how i feel deep right down. and i tell you it sucks. :(
Date & Time : 12/14/2008 / 8:48 PM
i think i got freaking chilling and an enjoying weekend. how about you? :)
bus-ed with ferynn to dover to take train. ehhhhhh, gossip partner ah, HAHA. met up with simei there and off we went to the super lkk budget hotel we booked. okay, it was located at lavander area.
i think we got scam or something. nevermind, i think we got a shock when we went into the room. luckily we din faint but just speechless. one night cost us like 95bucks. that explain how good bad you can expect the standard to be.
anyway, we unpacked our stuffs and went to bathe and prepare. went out around nine plus and off to eat at central. met guoqiang and jinming outside dbl o. bump into yizheng, ian and engkiat when we were just about to enter dbl o too. hahahaha, such coincidence ehhhhh.
so, afterall it was really more like a gathering for us. those very chill kinda night instead of our usual happening one. its not that bad though, heh.
simei, the clorets group. funny shit, HAHA.
club always end early on friday like 3am. we all went mcdonald for breakfast. i love big breakfast and i am craving for it now again. first time ate after club, i always wanna do that but failed to do so. i guess i am really too hungry, heh.
cabbed back to hotel and sleep. simei and me always having problem sleeping after drinking. it is kinda weird, who else have this problem other then us?
din slept much, woke up and bathe. had ytf at opposite hotel and the noodle was superb nice! went bugis awhile and back to hotel to rest awhile.
dbl o at night again. was there kinda late like near twelve? it was so packed, more crowded then friday. idk, why this two days dbl o have lots of malay and fat people, lol. whats wrong man, weird.
met gabriel there too, it was donkey years since i last met him. he din change much though, heh.
so drink, drunk, dance. the night was so funnnnnnnnnnnnnn. heheheheheheeee. night ended at four in the morning.
engkiat came and find us, went for supper. yes, i ate today again and i was so hungry man. he drove us to kallang and we slacked in the car awhile. lots of nonsense, talking cock, lol.
back to hotel at 7am and slept. checkout and had the super nice ytf again for breakfast cum lunch. home sweet home. :)
it was nice chilling and relaxing ourselves this weekend. i bet simei and me both love this yea. ahhhhhha. cheeky smiles of us.
fugly. haha.
alright,
i am gonna rest really well and sleep more.
i feel that my skin my face is dying.
sadddddddd, night life make me feel so old.
HAHA.
bye loves!
:)
Date & Time : / 1:43 PM
hi, i am back at home now after staying out since friday. my legs are super freaking tired, as if it is gonna break. i din really sleep for these two nights but i cant get to sleep now. maybe, i should just lie down and get some rest.
gonna update soon! :)
Date & Time : 12/11/2008 / 9:39 PM
LAST PAPER!!! WOOTS. :)
thanks love for the home baked cookies. much <3
Date & Time : 12/10/2008 / 8:11 PM
hi friend,
i realise how weak our friendship is after that incident. i yearn to see your name appearing in my phone. i hope to see your name popping out from msn chatlog. but it din happen anymore. :(
maybe afterall i mean nothing.
okay, enough of emotional stuffs. 3 papers are down, 2 left! cool shit.
and very fast its gonna be friday. hope everything gonna be good and fun that night. maybe its gonna be like a sec school gathering IF szemin is going. HAHA, you lazy bum yo!
and i just texted sweetheart saying . . . . . its a secret, heheheheee. she ask me not to make her cry in public. heh.
and i texted my idiotic bro too. he say i must be missing his scolding. you really idiotic leh, HAHA.
sometime, is good to text your friends once in awhile, telling them you miss them and let them feel important. this is how friendship work isnt it?
so, how important am i to you? :)
Date & Time : 12/08/2008 / 2:11 PM
"you crave for clubbing because you have never been to there,you continue to crave for clubbing because it is like a drug,but as time go by, you will realise clubbing is like a dream that you don't wish to have."
quoted from sweetheart's blog.
Date & Time : / 12:44 PM
okay. i got so much of thoughts and emotion right now. but, i cant say too much. because i have to concentrate on studying. yet, it seem like i am not doing a great job. this sucks alot.
therefore, i have to hide everything to myself first. maybe, when i see my darlings on friday and i will start chanting and ranting. and i hope friday come really fast. end of common test and start of my 3 weeks break.
anyway, i really appreciate those of you that care for me. despite you guys always scold and nag at me but i know you guys are so great. i love having friends like all of you. dont worry, i wont do anything wrong or things i shouldn't be doing. :)
meanwhile, i am gonna munch on some potato chips and junk food. start studying and focusing on my work, hopefully i can get this done. i am waiting to see sm, gq and j on friday night.
i just realise i have been blogging everyday. oh great.
bye!
Date & Time : 12/07/2008 / 6:49 PM
happy birthday <3
best wishes. :)
Date & Time : 12/06/2008 / 11:04 PM
OMG OMG OMG. i freaking din study today. HAHA.
metro was having sales. and i was so tempted. so, i went for shopping. ended up spending so much like again. i spend ***$ this week. *smack head!
anyway, i went to meet up with simei, guoqiang and thiamboon just now. it was nice catching up. seriously, i think we all change lehhhh. HAHAHA. then the two guys keep laughing at simei and me, hurhur. i wanted to go home early. so, they walked home with me, so nice of them. actually i requested one, haha! now idk where they are going.
but, i guess we are meeting up next week right simei and guoqiang. gonna have fun and enjoy life after my common test. though the news we heard yesterday killed some of our excitement.
I THINK I REALLY GOT NICE FRIENDS. and i really really love them so much. many many loves <3
i din went school today. boohoooo, naughty bad girl. HAHA.
went town-ing with simei. hehehee.
we had so much to talk about. so much to share and say. too much of hidden feeling, secrets which can only be told to each other. SAD right? but, we still have each other which is a good thing too.
like what you have said, we really go through thick and thin. haha!
anyway, we had so much fun and laugther. from gossiping about jy and friends. till stepping into the shop that play r&b songs that make us got the urge to club. going into shops to try clothes which caught our eyes. and dinner was wth man, craps craps craps. i swear we laughed like hell man when we talk about . . . . .
三十年后 . . . .
DAMN FUNNY I TELL YOU! hahahaha, lol.
we were saying we look like drunk in this photo!
HAHA.
and i cant wait for next weekend yo.
meanwhile, everyone try to be happy.
just smile, together we smile and live on.
:)
Date & Time : 12/02/2008 / 11:46 PM
i tried so hard to smile tonight, but the harder i try to smile, my heart pain more.
why are truths always so hurtful? :(
Date & Time : / 2:03 PM
knowing all the truths and facts. i think i made the best decision in my life. HAHA.
and i really gonna live happily ever after. heheheheee.
but, why are the truths always ugly? :(
Date & Time : 12/01/2008 / 7:30 PM
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sometime, when things happen in life. maybe, we should take a look from another view. at least, it once happen then never. just continue to smile and walk on.
things always happen fast. perhaps too fast for us to adapt or to accept. often, we just have to live with the fact. which might not be an easy task.
but what can we do? in fact, there isn't much thing we can do. bear with it, live with it.
i appreciate those that have been with me. staying with me no matter what. been patient with me, dote on me and love me. thank you so much. i am so glad i have such friends like you guys. :)
hi, i want to say, no matter what, i still cherish our friendship. can you feel it, do you get it? or what you have said previously are all just saying for fun? idk now anymore, i couldn't feel anymore. but still, i cherish this friendship.
sweetheart, i know someone is making you so piss off now. dont worry, i will be helping you to curse and swear at her. and it seem like i am damn good at it, lol. HAHA. just remember, you still got meeeeeeeeeee! <3
dearest simeimeimei, i can totally understand how you are feeling right now. the mixture and fear your heart is facing. dont worry, we will walk through this together. helping each other out till we are totally over this tough time. think of our secret plan and dont you think its gonna be damn exciting and fun! i cant wait to see you soon, i bet you too right. i miss youuuuuuuuuuu.
my handsome idiotic bro, though you always say i act dao never talk to you, and keep scolding me asshole. but, i still wanna thank you lehhhhh, happy? HAHA. thanks for always waking me upppppp. telling me there are so much more important things in life. and always being there with me. much loveeeeeeeee.
and there are more people that i love too. many friends that care for me. even if we dont always keep in touch or chat. but, whenever you guys talk to me. i could feel how much you all care though i din say much. <3
life is still not that bad afterall. because i have got you guys and my family that have always been nice to me. maybe on night, the truth still hurt, tears still fall. but, i still have to except it. smile on, just continue to smile and it will be fine.
:)
sweetheart, omg. omg. omg. i am so happy now. heheheheheee. mine came true, and jer will come haunting for you SOON okay. LOL.
