wasn't in my perfect mood.
everything seem just not right.
yea, i know this is life but still . . . .

was worried yesterday about the result but i just kept quiet.
as usual, i smiled as though i am perfectly fine.
but, after the phone call, i couldn't take it.
and i started to tear, then cried.
))':

i mean, if that really happen, its gonna be so unfair.
i rather it will happen to me instead.
and i mean it.

you don't know how much i love her, you don't.
you don't know how much she mean, you don't.
you don't know how important she is, you don't.

i have been controlling my feeling.
i was really worried and my heart aches whenever i thought of the possible outcome.
tried to smile and look happy, but i wasn't at all.

i am thankful that i have got sweetheart.
my best friend, no doubt.

just give me a hug and assure me things will be fine.
i wish, i wish . . . . .

I AM LIKE MELTING.
the weather is god damn hot.

i have calculated the total cost of the products my company gave xiaxue.
cleanser; $24 each (2 given)
5 in 1 moisturizer; $68 (2 given)
sunblock; $35 and $42
eye care; $74 and $88

total bill: $423!

anyway, i received a message from marilyn today.
i was super uber happy to see it.
sort of cant believe it too!
all i can say was sha-la-la-la.
((:

i hope i am gonna maximize my time tomorrow.
and get things done.
so, i have got something to show my supervisor on wed.
ahhhhha.

tomorrow is the day.
wish momma and me lots of lucks!
pray with me.
((:

oh my god!
xiaxue advertise on my company products!
HAHAHAHA.

CLICK HERE!
to find out more!

its so cool man!
((:

but, wth did she pose so much for the cleanser.
that only cost $24, so cheap can.
should post with or(overnight repair) what.
more expensive, 88 buckaroos!
then, people will have more impression and buy that instead.

MUAHAHAHAHA.

momma just reminded me of my graduation trip.
and yea, i am suppose to save up for that.
she asked me to bring her along too!
i suggested sweetheart bring her mum too, so both of our momma will have partner.
LOL.

i wanna go overseas!
((:

GOOD DAY!

work was fine today.
ahhhhha.
i was almost all the time slacking.
i am good at eating snake!
lol.

get to know new friend again.
its like you always get to know new people and keep changing working partners.
i mean, when working in roadshow.
eh, i am not that friendly but not that anti-social right?!
HAHAHAHA.

and finally, i gotten myself a small wallet or rather card case from bonia, white colour.
just nice to fit my ezlink cards and some money.
baby say its expensive though, but good quality.
but, i still want my braun buffel, which i wanted since jan or feb.
((:

i had a blue black on my foot!
its so pain.
duhhhhh, random.

and some idiotic small boy is copying my sentence, lol.
"thanks baby, you are such a honey" whenever i help him with something.
HAHAHAHA.

oh baby baby.
i miss you so.

alright,

there is a thief in my house!

that steal all my stuff, that's so bad right?
he steal my durian puff, HL fresh milk, fruit tree apple juice and sweets!
millions of cries!

daddy, STOP eating my things.
)):

ok, shelly i did blog!
yay!
((:

i just mention that i want a new phone.
the next moment, i carelessly dropped my phone on the floor.
and now, it gone crazy!


i fancy lg ku990, alright its lg viewty.
but, i don't wanna spend money.
mother's day is coming!


repair my phone or get a new one?
hmmm.

i need shopping so badly!
i haven been shopping since chinese new year.
like almost gonna be 3 months.
that's freaking long man.
)):

Monday blues . . . .

and i overslept today.
asked ruixing to go to school first.
but who know, in the end we took the same bus to school.
yet, we din realise we are in the same bus till when we reach our classrooms.
LOL right, cock eyes man!

i don't know why i am feeling god damn tired this two weeks.
only this two weeks.
maybe maybe, time of the month.
)):

due to some company changes,
there will be a change.
i shall give them my support and help them out.
but, shall see how things go.
oh well.

i am invited to my trainer lynn's birthday party.
this friday at double o.
hmmm, i don't like to club.
but, . . . . . . . .
you know you know.
company relations, must have good bond right!

gonna meet baby tonight for botak jones!
my virgin attempt trying that.
hope its yummylicious!

dated friday;

finally, its the end of the week!
shalalala, i spell happy!
((:

went city hall with my 爱人.
sweetheart wanted to pass her ex colleauges lao po bing she bought from hong kong.
after that, slack around.

was still early and our sushi buffet is only starting at 3pm.
window shopping around and went to esplanade.
started cam-whoring.
heh.





















waited and waited, its finally 3pm!
off for our sushi buffet.
yummy yummy.
*walk out with our bloated tummy, BURP.
lol.

headed to marina square.
i wanted to shop but nothing really caught my attention.
maybe, only that top but the back design spoil it!
)):

and an idiot stole my slipper which i put outside my house.
i really mean idiot because he/she left their own slipper for me and took mine away.
exchanging of slippers hur?
=.=

i dreamt of baby going to army yesterday.
and i teared in my dream.
baby baby, don't worry i will stay through your army years.
two years later, we will be celebrating our seven years anniversary yea.
i do love you so, i really mean it.
<3!

i really appreciate everyone that love me and those who are there for me.
when i doesn't say anything, it don't mean i don't care.
we doesn't have to keep repeating 'i love you' this 3 words.
feel it instead yea?

*saw this on shelly's blog and decided to try out the quiz since so said that is somehow true!

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

and yes i realise, it is somehow really quite true!
especially , the part about relationship!
((:

fcuk.
i totally hate such feeling.

nothing is going wrong.
but the feeling is like shit.

i have got boyfriend to dote on me when i am so tired.
i have got the best momma that loves me.
i have got friends that make me feel wanted and love.
i have got friend to make laugh when i am bored.

but,

why the hack am i feeling so sucky?!

PMS.
missed my aunt visit for 3 days.
faster come luh!

new semester, new life.
time passes really fast.
last year of poly life.
maybe i will miss it afterall?
oh well.

however, school is such a turn off this semester.
i don't like it at all, not even a single tiny lil bit.
its god damn boring.

somehow, when people get along longer.
you will start to see their flaws.
and silent unhappiness came along.
thus, causing the conflict that happen today.
but, afterall, this is life, isn't it.
learn it, live it and adapt to it.
the world is realistic, a fact that wouldn't change.
((:

i am always bad at handling such situation.
like usual, i choose to remain silent instead.
i am bad at rejecting things or people at times.
the worse, i cant express my feeling in the right way.
often, my intention was being misunderstood.

i always believe that if your intention was good from the start.
though you never express it out, but people can still feel it, isn't it?
like wise, the one that always claim to say that he love you is the one that will ended up leaving you.
however, the one that remain silent and being supportive is the one that stays.

but;

humans will never get this point right.
don't judge things from the surface.

sometimes, you just bought it upon yourself.
you cant blame anyone.
you made the decision, you choose the way.
get it?

i need happy pills.
i feel like crying.
indeed, i am having very serious mood swing.
)):

i am craving for sushi buffet.
anyone?

i don't feel like going to school.
)):

i don't feel like blogging.
)):

i don't feel like talking.
)):

it have been really some time since i can totally relax.
and maybe have some great fun.
though i just had chalet last week.
i want more, more and more!

i think i am having PMS.
can somebody cheer me up please?

and i miss my baby so much!
))):

i think i am hungry.
i needa eat!

depressing.
but i did tried my best.
((:

yesterday;

sweetheart and me gave twinnie a surprise!
is a advance birthday surprise.
heh.

we went to her house and asked her to open the door.
she just woke up and got a shock.
we succeeded!
yay!


the big birthday board and her presents.


happy advance birthday!

while waiting for twinnie to pack her stuff and wash up.
sweetheart and me took some silly pictures.
hahahaha.














baby, i so wanna kiss you!


me and twinnie.

went to the food court and have lunch.
train-ed to wild wild wet.
my first time there.
hahahaha.


wild wild wet.

had fun over there!
tried almost all the things over there expect that riding thingy.
the u shape thing was like cool, my heart almost drop out.
that Ularh-la was very fun too!

oh ya, i tripped and fell when i was trying to play with the slide.
and i don't wanna play with the slide again.
but, the girls pulled me to join them.
lucky this time round, i din fell if not will be damn paiseh cause that one have lifeguard.
anyway, my butt still hurts!
)):

we left around six plus.
went to have dinner somewhere near.
the food was not bad eh.
especially, the satay very yummy!


mee rubus, mee goreang, mee soto and tom yum soup!

HELLO, i had a wonderful four days of break.
and tomorrow is my last day of off day.
awww, i am so lazy to work now.

Tuesday, 1 april 2008


Our japanese boss giving us a speech.


company dinner at merchant court hotel.