Monday blues. But, overall, still a good day! WP this morning. Demo. Mr Fulu did not tell us. We only knew it last minute. If not we could have come to school later. Cause, my group turn is on thursday. FSP demo next tuesday. Got to really buck up. Jia you Jueying! You can do it! Don't be lazy anymore. FSP make up today. Lesson started from three til five plus. Wanting they all ended at one so they went off first. Went home with Guo Qiang. Poor us, got to stand throughout the whole journey. The bus was extremely packed. Hungry. The first thing I reached home was to eat! Lolz. Two great improvements I have made today. I spent only three bucks. Imagine Jueying only spent three bucks. Weird right. Haha. I bought my water bottle too. Weets. Lets work towards my target.
Savings. Sports and wellness tomorrow. Tennis. Gonna complete FSP too. Holidays coming. Weets.
Met up with Wanting, Ruixing, Jiaxuan and Nicole to study in school. Again, we did nothing. Boo. Chatting and gossiping were what we were doing. Girls are all like that. Ahha. How I wish there is a group of girls in my class that can clique well too. I think it will be great. There is a group of people filming in the library. Really envy those people that are studying the film and media studies course. So interesting. Home sweet home at five. Left the library. Anyway, Wanting got "yan yu" today. Lolz. Hmmm. That part I shall not say. Anyway, they are just disturbing her. Ahha. Reach home quite early. Around six. Went lao pa sa with family. Ate damn lots of things. I have been eating alot recently. People, don't you notice I have become fatter? Haha. Fats, fats, fats. Lolz. But, I think I need more of that. Gaining weight in process. Something came across my mind. If someone ask you, who do you love most? What will be your answer? My answer would be my mummy, not
him. I don't know why too. My mummy really loves me, so do I.
Hi club !
WP project had finally ended. Weets. Now, waiting for the demo. FSP to continue. But, never mind, it will be over soon. Very soon. Ahha. Lolz. Recieved a testi from Ferynn. Yup. She is right, I am quite persimistic in my post. I seem to be sad in some ways. However, that is gonna be the past! I am a happy girl now. I
love my life. Everything seems to be fine. Even without
you. I am doing fine. I think you don't mean as much to me as compared to the past. Hmmm. It is a good news I suppose. And, I am beginning to accept what is good for me and the one that cherish me more. Ahha. It is not that I have forgotten you, is just that I have gone through too much. My feelings for you have somehow become numb?! I don't know. All I know is I wanna forget you. Perhaps just leave you in my memories. I am gonna delete away the sad ones just leave behind the beautiful ones. Haha. We ought to learn to let go. Aren't we? Anyway, Marvin commented that I am goong! People, what is your defination of goong? Some say blur and some say retarded! Oh mine. I don't wanna be a
retard! Sobz. Haha. Tell me I am not that retard. Haha. Save me ((:
Tired. Long day. Stay back to do WP project. Did till 830 then we went home. But, I think I did not help much. Due, to the limitation of skills I have. Haha. My big head has nothing except for lots of water. Lolz. Anyway, seventh month is here. It is gonna be a long one. Two months. Beware of g**** people. Take note of what you are saying and stepping on. Or else, they might... ... Haha. I think I am crazy. Oops. I forget to take my medication today. No wonder I am so screw loose. Lalala. Mary had a little lamb, little lamb, little lamb... Twinkle twinkle little star, how I wonder what you are... I am tired dead. Save me people. By the way, the China trip is gone. They claim that it is overwhelming and it is
FULL. Boo. Make us happy and then down. Never mind, I believe there will be something better waiting for me. Ahha. Right here waiting.
Don't kill me please! I am innocent.
What am I thinking
NOW?
3 people that I misses most.
` mummy
`
boy` you
3 things that is found on me.
` spects
` t-shirt
` shorts
3 words to describe myself.
` blur
` dummy
` crazy
3 questions that pop out in my mind.
` are there any constant reader for my blog?
` are my posts often too boring?
` which 3 words would people use to describe me?
3 wishes to be made.
` I wanna have more confidence in myself
` I wanna be more pretty. lolz.
` I wanna be better in my languages and be more brainy.
3 miracles to happen.
` friends would love me like I love them
` all those things did not take place
`
if boy is leaving me, then leave me for good. don't ever come back to me again.3 songs that suit my feeling the best.
` wo zhen de shuo shang le
` kiss goodbye
` yong qi
3 colours that I adore.
` lime green
` brown
` orange
3 ways to make me happy when I am down.
` hugs
` sayang my hair
` make me laugh
Iknowevenwhenthewholeworldhaveabandonme,youwillstillstandbyme.Thanksforeverythingyouhavedoneforme.
High club yesterday was fine. The song purest of pain. They said that we signed too fast. The only part that we signed the best is the word surrender. We all did it in order. Lolz. They all wanted to join the instructor and intemediate course. So, we signed up as a whole class. Together we will succeed. Jyians, remember our school motto? I think I am going insane. Haha. Went back to school to do FSP today. But, did nothing much in the end. Was chatting and playing over there. I think I wrote less than 10 lines of codes. Boo. Time to buck up. Thats what I have always said. However, I am not doing it. *smack* Recently, my mum ex company called her up. They want her to go back and work. Now, she is caught in a dilemma. She don't know if she should go back. Cause, if she goes back, we all believe that she is gonna work like crazy. So much stuffs waiting for her to do. I am afraid that her health cannot take it. She is not a normal human, she is sick. But, the pay is attractive as compared to the current one which is so pathetic. Seriously, I dont want her to go back cause of her health. I don't wanna lose my mummy.
I love her. Lolz. The decision still lies in her anyway. It is useless for me to say anything. People, please tag for me. My tag box is flowing slow. Haha.
Deng dai bu yi ding hui you jie guo.
Bu ru gei ai ni de ren he zi ji bi ci yi ge xiang ai de ji hui <33>
- Quoted from: Lin Ling Zhi, Yes 933 DJ
I wanted to delete all your messages
But, my hand god stuck
It cant move
I knew I have not forgotten you
But, I am trying real hard
Just to forget you
I just need more time
But I know you are not as important as the past
Is just that I cant forget you completely
I am damn piss off by myself today! Fuckkkkkk. Argh. I was stupid enough to click on the close button when I have not even save my file. Normally, they will ask you if you want to save changes before the file is officially close down. I was blur enough to click no. Which means I did not save my work which is already half done. My stupid brainy, I really wonders how you function at times. *calm down girl*Anyway, I have already completed my project by now cause the dateline is tommorrow. There is this china trip happening now. And you know what? My mummy has agreed to let me go. Weets. Whats more that makes me happy is my god mummy says that she is going to pay for the travel fees and expenses! Weets. Lalala. Life is still not that bad afterall. Lolz. Now, only scare that there are too few places and we cant go. Boo. But, still hope that we can get a chance to go. Projects and tests are making me crazy. I cant cope. Lolz.
I am just a emotional creature that tears easily! Boo ... )):
Oops! Why do I see Sebas face in my lappy???!!! Anyway ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEBAS !!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEBAS !!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEBAS !!!
Seriously, I am tired. Really tired. Going to shut down mode soon. Haha. Reach home around ten. Had hi club again. I don't like her.
*%#@%$@!. Don't ask me why. I just don't like. That's it. FP project to be done by this friday. Need to rush out the report. WP project next friday too. Boo! I need to be more concentrate. Buck up jueying! You can do it! Exams coming soon. Real soon. Jia you everyone.
Absence makes the heart grows fonder <33
New tennis teacher today. Hmmm. No comment. Was asked to run three rounds around the three tennis courts. Cats presentation today. I think my group have done well. *claps* At least we all put in efforts. We was asked to grade all the groups starting from the best. Sebastian and my group got a tie. But, mr bala decided to let our group win. Ahha. Toberlone chocos for us. Weets. WP project after school. Didn't do anything cause Haoyih forget to bring the book and I forget to bring my thumbdrive. Lolz. Plus we didn't know how to do. Maybe, it is a excuse for us to slack also. Haha. We spend the whole 3 to 4 hours chatting, gossiping, playing silly games and cracking jokes. I declared that haoyih and junjie is the certified joker in 1T03. Lolz. They can really make you laugh. Funny people. Then, out of a sudden I thought of something and I told them. They were laughing like hell. Haha.
Taken place quite long ago ... ...
The story goes like this ... ...
(all in chinese)
me: ah bu, deng yi xia wo gen wo de nan peng you chu qu.
mummy: okay. ke shi bu yao qu gong yuan dong ma. haha.
brother: ah bu, ni jiang cuo le. ni ying gai jiang bu yao qu gong yuan kan hua, kan cao, kan xiang chang!
3 of us: hahahahaha.
lame ... ...
catch the joke?At times I really wonder how my mind function. Figuring out in process... ...
findingbackthefeelingweonceusedtohave.
Today, we have bigger houses and smaller families.
More convinence but less time.
We have more degree, but less common sense.
More knowledge, but less judgement.
We have more experts, but more problems.
More medicines, but less wellness.
We spend too recklessly.
Laugh too little.
Drive too fast.
Get to angry too quickly.
Stay up too late.
Read too little.
Watch TV too much.
And pray too seldom.
We mulitplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too little and lie too often.
We have learnt how to make a living, but not a life.
We have added years to life, not life to years.
We have taller bulidings, but shorter tempers.
Wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less.
We buy more, enjoy it less.
We have been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet our neighbours.
We have conquered the outer space, but not inner space.
We have split the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, learn less, plan more, but accomplish less.
We have learn to rush, but not to wait.
We have higher incomes, but lower morals.
We are long on quantity, but less in quality.
Tall men, short character.
Two incomes, but more divorces.
Fancier house, but broken homes.
That's why I propose, that as of today, you do not keep anything for special occasion, because everyday is a special occasion.
Life is a chain of moment of enjoyment, not only about survival.
Everyday, every hour, and every minute is special.
And you don't know if it will be your last.
I don't know how many of you will be patient to read the whole chunk. But, if you have done so, I think you will feel that it do make sense.
Hmmm. I could not control anymore. I was controlling my tears, trying hard to hold back my tears cause I am in class. But, when zhou xiong look at me, I don't know what happen. Tears just roll down my cheeks. I went to the toilet to "hide". Ahha. Crying makes me feel much better. Went to eat again. Eating is a good way of venting stress. Ate with Haoyih and Junjie. Talking with them make me forget all my unhappiness, cause they are damn funny. Went back class to slack again. Have to wait for "ya ba" club to start at six. Feeling much better. See the guys playing CS. Was funny. Noobs? Lolz. After that just left the few of us. Bored. Started playing games. Tic-tac-toe, hangman and true or dare. Funny. Mr Choo came in the class and talk to us.
He is real funny and cute! I love him man. Lolz. My favourite teacher. Went "ya ba" club. Recieve a message from zhou xiong and friend, yong xiang. Thanks for cheering me up. Thanks guys! Mac for dinner. Double cheeseburger meal and corn. I feel like a pig. Eating is all my life especially when I am down. Home sweet home.
Ineedabreak.Iamdyingsoon.dyingofstressandunhappiness.whyamishuttingdownmyheart?eventothosewhoarereallygoodtome?whatishappeningtome?pullmeout.pleasepleaseplease.
Tuesday.
IS day was fine. Didn't do much stuffs. Mr Gopi is leaving, will get a new teacher from next week onwards. But, I think Mr Gopi will still do a better job. Cats, we were doing our product. I think we are damn funny. Ate lunch with Esther, Szemin, Ruixing, Ian, Roy, Guoqiang and laopa. Was fun. I did enjoy my lunch pretty much. Ian was playing some games with me. Funny man. They said that I am pentium 1 but in the end upgrade to pentium 3. Lolz.
I don't deny I am slow. Haha. Esther, I am treating you carrots. Naughty cute rabbit. Ahha. Lolz.
Wednesday.
I was very late for class today. But, Connie is treating me very well today. Whats happening? Maybe, she is still not that bad afterall. Haha. Mr Choo is so nice. Treated us biscuits. Each of us a box. It was nice. Yummy. After school, slack awhile in class. Crapping away with guys. My class guys are funny. We decided to eat pizza tommorrow as WP lesson was cancelled. But, just four of us. Just nice for a table. Anyway, good day!
Some things are not within our control.
Don't blame me for my decision.
I don't want it that way too.
I am sorry.
Monday blues. But, overall it is still a good day! *thumbs up* Connie was good today. Ahha. She finally let us form our own group. Haha. Mr Fulu is not having thursday lecture. So, we only have to come to school at two pm. Anyway, thanks marvin for the chocolate.
"After eight" chocolates melts me! Yummy. Tommorrow got to wake up early again . Dragggg. Is IS day. Boo. A short day I would say. The only good point. Julian hee is handsomeeeee. Haha.
The weather is so hottttt. Boo! Anyway, people take note of the song which my blog is playing now. Cause, I love this song. Ahha. Haha. It is nice to me. It is sang by twins and boys. Cantonese version.
Devil is the root of procestination! I wanted to study today, but I kept delaying. So, in the end I did nothing but slack the whole day. *smack* My cousin is finally completing her four years of studies at NUS. Now, she is with a honest degree from life science course. Power. Cause, I will never be able to get this. *envy* Haha. Going to her graduation ceremony tommorrow. Congrats sis. Time to spot some handsome guys too. *smack* Ahha. Haha. I think it is really time for me to pack up my feelings and move on. Forget the past and find new cheese. Haha. Lolz.
I have not forgotten you, but I left you in part of my memory, keep deep in my heart. Special someone, special you.
At times, we don't need a thick belt to outstand our outfit. Perhaps, a thin belt would do a better job. Maybe, the same thing applies to love. You need not be with the one you love, the one that loves you more can actually do a better job instead. The only way to love is not by finding the perfect person, but by loving the imperfectly person perfectly. But, how many people can actually do that? We knew that in our hearts.
Today is a bad day! Boo! I brought the wrong file to school. I brought WP file instead of COS. Then, my beloved sandal left the wonderful world. Haha. She died on 5th of july 2006. So sad. Just love the pair of sandals. Feel so comfy in it. Never mind I believe there will be better ones out there waiting for me. Ahha. I need more clothes. Running out of clothes to wear. Hump.
I want to go ZPOP to see liang jingru! I want that Kappa sling bag! I want I want! I am a greedy pig, I don't deny that. Haha. Tommorrow is going to be a long day. Perhaps, boring too. Cause there will be HI club. Haha.
IknowIamrunningawayfromreality.
IknowIambluffingmyself.
ThoughthehurtisunbearableIamstilllovingyou.
Duibuqiwoaini.
The deserted kid? Haha ...
Oops! What are they trying to do? Oh mine ...
Hao Yih and Jun Jie are g**? Haha ...
Shaun ... Sit properly okay. Its obsence ...
Boring day. Boo! Wp lesson is always so slack. Wonder if it is good or bad. Hmmm. Two hour lesson. Sat there for the first hour aimlessly doing nothing. Then, there come the presentation. Only five minutes or lesser? Time to slack again. Went to eat with Jiaxin, Junjie and Hao yih. COS was shita. Ahha. Connie was giving us group work and have to finish by the end of the lesson. It is alright cause we have already use to it. But, she was like keep rushing us to hand in just because she is hungry and want to eat. What kind of sucky teacher I have and her attitude is so... Ahem. Haha. Never mind. People should learn to forgive and forget in order to live happier.
The world is so small! Zhou Xiong and Mr Heng is actually good friends when they were small. So call playmates. That's so coincidence. Anyway, today is still a great day, because of you. Thanks ya. Lazy to upload all of the photos as there is quite alot. Shall post a few more thats all. I don't deny I am lazy. Haha.
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