Chatted with tall tall thin thin today. SOMEHOW, I felt that he got the same mentality with xiao nu er. They DON'T WANT to change papa or father in law. I am REALLY tired. I don't WISH to think anymore. At times, I really HATED myself. PLEASE forgive me people. I don't mean it. IF I could I would not have let ALL this happen. Sorry.

So, final OUTCOME. Its a class chalet cum BBQ. Portfolio, ALMOST done completely. Yes! So HAPPY. But the credits go to GUO QIANG. He is a great helper. Thanks boy. Constantly took cab home for TWO days. I am simply just too TIRED. Hmmm. People, PLEASE bear with me. I know I am complaining TOO MUCH. Anyway, a FUNNY thing happen. Guo qiang, Ruixing and me board the cab at SIM. We fetch Wanting at NP. Then, I think there was some MISCOMMUNICATION somewhere. So, Wanting had to CHASE the cab. The procedure was damn FUNNY. I should have RECORD it down. Haha. CUNNING me. *smack*. Today Tennis was fun. For the FIRST time i sweat so much during the class. BURN so much fats. Haha. COMMON TEST is on the way. Wonder how I DIE.

*// wo zhi shi xiang yao . . .

Running out of TIME! I desperately need MORE time. Currently rushing out my port folio. How I WISH I am not a computer idiot! I need to become more INDEPENDENT. Jueying, DON'T rely on others anymore. It is time for you to STAND UP. Enough of all this. Anyway, the story is getting more and more COMPLICATED. How I wish NOTHING had happen at all.

I wish I would cling on you . . .
But, I know my heart is with him . . .
Dui bu qi, wo ai ni . . .

Tired! LOTS of WP stuffs to complete. Hate it. Busy, NO time for anything else. I wish I wasn't a computer idiot. SAVE me. Computing maths. I think in am struggling too. FSP and COS. I am not doing well too. STRESS. But out of all these sad stuffs, there is something to be happy about. Class project is on the way. Perhaps a BBQ or Sentosa outing. I wish for a BBQ. Lots of bonding is needed. I believe someday, 1T03 will be UNITED. We can do it.

I tell myself i must have faith in you. . .
When i close my eyes, is all you. . .
My heart is stuck with you. . .

- missing you -

Busy, busy and busy. Common test coming but still lots of unfinish projects. Tired. Dying in progress. Haha. There is lots of water in my brain. Storing more and more water. I WANT TO BECOME CLEVER! Anyway, today is a GOOD DAY! I think I am going crazy soon. Haha.

Special someone, Special you...
Only you =)

Great day! Short and sweet. Had S&W and cats class only. I drag Tennis lesson today cause my back is hurting. Sob. Jurong Point have new shops. Charles and keith and some others too. Woo, long time didn't went there. Some shops are newly renovated. I lived so near but yet I have not been there for so long. Haha. Saw crown belt at ice lemon tea. Selling at $12.95. It is so cheap! When I first saw at marina square few months ago it is selling at $25.90. Though, I like it I don't want to buy anymore. Cause alot of people have it already. Anyway, Poseidon is a nice show.

stress, strESS, STRESS ... ...

dui bu qi, wo ai ni ... ...

Shopping again. Went out with Simei. Bugis, our favourite hangout. I want to save money but yet I spent almost all my money! I bought $40 out and I left $2 when I reach home. Sucky me. Haha. Then, we went into a shop to try out a top. The shop was burning some joss stick i think. We are allergy to it. Flu is pestering us now! Eeek. I am allergy to smell like that and perfume. My sensitive nose. Anyway, we bought a same mickey purp top. I officially declare that i am BROKE now. I am left with $20 for the rest of the month! How am I going to survive?! But great Singapore sales is coming! Sob. I am so piss off now. I cant do my FSP homework! For goodness sake, I cant open the file. At first, I can open the file only that don't know why it is like hang and I cant even close it. Must control alternate delete. Haha. Then, later on worse, cant even open the file. Both administrator and npstd is the same. Hmmm. *Calm down girl* Wonder how am I going to hand in my homework. Sigh =(

tell me what my heart wants... ...
who I wanted... ...
= (

Yeah! Finally, finish watching it started with a kiss. A nice show I would say. Touching and funny. Haha. There was this part in disc 19, showing Zhishu hugging Xiangqin in the rain and kiss her and say "ni bu ke yi xi huan bie ren". Soooo touching. And for goodness sake, I cried. I did a stupid thing which is replaying the part again and again. I am mad! But is like I have waited so long for this moment! Another part when zhishu propose to xiangqin, I did that dummy thing again. Replaying. Soooo sweet. Boring day. Had all the boring lessons as usual. I think I really entered the wrong course! Anyway, I won a Java book. Mr Pham have two books to give away and all of us want. So, we played a game. Mr Pham wrote a number on a piece of paper and each of us will say out a number, the two closest one will get the book. Guess what, I got exactly the number. Wow, power. Haha. My lucky clover, good job. One more book goes to Junjie. Went home at five plus today. Took the same bus with many people. Imagine 11 Jyian on the same 154. Amazing. Haha. Plus all is same group, all friends. Thanks IAN and SHUJIE for helping me to carry that heavy book. Haha. I am dying, I cant cope with my studies. In my falala land. Pull me out please... ... =)


Happy Birthday Mummy! ! !
Happy Birthday Mummy! ! !
Happy Birthday Mummy! ! !

I am not alone.
Thanks friends.


raining in my heart =)

Friday.
Met up with Jiaxin, sebas and Marvin at woodlands to do project. But, the library was closed! So, went to Mac instead. Tried out the new pepper chicken meal. Shared with Jiaxin. Hmmm. Still not too bad. Did our FP project. Some research and writeup. We really did ABIT! Haha. We were chased out by the Mac staffs and we got nowhere to go. Ended the day. The two guys promised to finish up the 2000 words. So nice of them. We all went seperate ways. I went to marina to meet up with my family. Had steamboat. Basically, I have been eating for the whole day that day. I just love eating. We were all so full. We played bowling. First time playing bowling as a whole family and my whole family means all my mama side people. It was so fun. None of us is good at it except my god papa. Haha. My cousins and brother played arcade after that. I only play once, don't know call what. The racing car one and i am also not good at it. I enjoyed myself!
Saturday.
Slack at home. Wanted to do WP project. However, after spending so much time, I only managed to do one page! Sucky me. Then, devil visiting me again. Devil is the root of procrestination. Vcd. Yes, it started with a kiss. Finally, I finish the first box. I did it! Haha. But, still another box to continue.
Sunday.

HAPPY MAMA DAY!!!
HAPPY MAMA DAY!!!
HAPPY MAMA DAY!!!

lost.

smile with me =)

Went to SIM to have lunch with classmates yesterday. Hmmm, the food was not bad and the price is rather reasonable too. Yesterday and today, heard my friends telling me that they prefer secondary school friends. I thought that guys can get along well easily, just playing few rounds of games then they are bonded. But, actually, that is not the case. They did not really like their current friends now. They still prefer the same old us. Secondary school friends. Someone said that only secondary school friends can last. I don't know is it true, but I hope so. I love my secondary school friends. I miss the joys we used to share. The laughter we had. Somehow, no matter is girls or boys we can all get along quite well. Cheers for us. As for me, my new classmates are okay. Funny people. Haha. But, I really hope my classmates and I can get along really well like 4E2. Hehe. I think more bonding is needed. Give ourselves more time to adapt. Projects, projects and projects. It seem to be never ending and it is only the third weeks. I think this is going to last for three years and I have to get use to it. COS and CM lesson today. I was in my falala land again. Yup, my favourite hangout. People who know me well enough should know that. Lost track of what the lecturer is teaching. Deserve to be bash. Haha. I should catch up later on and I hope I will.

Crapping time. . .
I cant sing,
I cant dance,
I cant study well,
I cant play well in sports,
My brain cant function well,
I am only good at day dreaming,
shopping,
being blur.
I think I had a great problem.
People who knows good doctors please introduce one to me.
If can a handsome one would be great.
In urgent need!
Haha.

Last friday, variety show. Yes, our class did it! We won the most entertaining award. But, all the efforts goes to our class boys. Cause they act as girls. Our theme was miss ICT. So, they wore girls dresses and costumes. It was really super funny. Haha. I think we all enjoy ourselves. Anyway, the prize wasn't that fantastic, it was 50 $1 mac voucher. Never mind, I am still happy with it. Had mac with most of my classmates today. I am beginning to love my class, 1To3.

Long weekend. Sunday went shopping again. It was a very last minute thing. Usually, we will plan before hand but not this time. Simei and me chatted in msn, we were like so bored. It was around twelve plus then we decided to go bugis. We met up at about two plus at boon lay. The trip was quite good cause we managed to buy some things in a few hours. At times after hours of shopping, we will go home empty handed. This time she bought two tops and I bought a top and a bottom. We each bought three pairs of ear rings as well. We also had medicure. Haha. Girls are like that. Vainpots. Yup. We are, I don't deny that. I love spending money especially when I am feeling down. I know it is a sin but I cant help that too. Haha. Katong laska. Yum yum. So nice. I want that again. Simei say my back is getting worse. Shit lahz. I don't want it to be worser. I don't want to go for operation. Tuesday. Short school day. Had Tennis, first time playing. It was quite fun but tiring as well. I am a bad sports person, I don't deny that. I need to be train more, more and more. Haha. Cats class is like so so only. Nothing much to talk about. Tommorrow is a long long day. Nine to six. Office hours. Haha.

I am gonna be strong. . .
I know I can. . .
I believe I can too. . .